Founding out I was pregnant wasn't exactly on my 2025 bingo. It was the last thing I expected to go through this year. But a week leading up to those two lines turning up quick and bright, I started to feel a shift. A baby name popped in my mind clear as day and I had a strong feeling of the possibility that I could be pregnant. It didn't change my utterly shocked and panicked reaction to a positive pregnancy test. Three hours of a panic attack and the sure feeling that I could NOT go through with this, my sweet boyfriend gave me the space to fully choose what I wanted to do, reassuring me I would still have him to go home to, no matter my decision. Two minutes after him giving me that option to make whatever decision I needed for me, I had a strong feeling that this baby would be an incredible blessing and something absolutely beautiful in our lives. I couldn't even think of terminating anymore. We were going to do this. I was going to be a mom.
The rest of the day felt like a haze. I made my OB appointment and called my endocrinologist. I started taking prenatal, set myself up on an app, and I bought a cook book and the bible of pregnancy to help with the transition and I already found myself choosing to eat healthier. And of course I had to tell my two closest friends. I immediately starting falling into my role and it felt so incredibly natural, even with some side effects coming on strong (insomnia and constipation).
It was a whirlwind of a day, and definitely not the day I thought I was going to have. Everyday from here on out is going to be crazy, challenging and beautiful. And with my man that I have chosen to do this with by my side, I know its going to all okay.
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